I cant help but feel that I’m some how retarded in some way. All my life I had to go to “special” classes, I just cant tell if it”s because I have some kind of mental disorder or I”m just dumb. I’ve never been book smart, I barely pasted high school and I cant spell most words, but I’m clever as shit. I just wish I knew. … not knowing if it’ my fault or not is slowly killing me in side….